What do you want from me ?

Recently ,
I miss her so much ,
I almost lost myself ,
because we getting less contact ,
maybe she really want me became stronger ,
I want tell her ,
I won't down ,
because I won't let her down ,
I didn't forget her every moment ,
every time at school ,
when teacher is teaching in front me ,
but ,
I still hold my phone ,
hope can she send me a message ,
I knew that she won't do that ,
but ,
I just waiting ....

I just want her ...
She might have gave me everything ,
but ,
I just want little bit from her ,
this enough for me ...

I would give myself away ~
Not away from her but lonely ...
I won't give up ,
never !

What happen on me ?
Lost my way ,
while busy on daily life but I felt something lost ,
is her !
Almost losing.........



This week ,
we have been informed that our school will holiday at Chinese new year ,
happy because can rest ,
sad because what can I done ?
Lazy when heard holiday ,
I want go school !
I love my school day !

無奈..

在人生里我們有很多東西要學,
學無止境,
活到老,學到老,
這才是我們要的,
你經歷了很多並不代表你最厲害,
別人經歷的你沒經歷過,
你算厲害嗎?
厲害在你驕傲,
你了解但你不會謙虛,
這算得了什麼...

我們要學會謙虛,
學會長進,
學會成熟,
這才是重點...

人不是萬能,
但人會思考,
有判斷能力,
會分辨是非,
而且,
還會計較,做兩頭蛇,
更爱享受,
吃好的,睡好的,穿好的,
還浪費金錢及糧食,
不會珍惜現在,
只會計較過去....

貪心,自私,計較,
人最厲害,
愛心,慈悲,喜舍,
這些人都有,
很少,
若說很多,
大部分都是表面...

著名的慈善家,
為甚麼他們會出名,
因為要炫燿,
要全世界人的他的模樣,
好讓全世界都尊敬他,
認為他是大好人,
虛偽....

真正的慈善,
並非在表面,
若有心,
私底下把錢捐出去,
不用經過剪彩或哪一張超大的支票,
在媒體面前擺個姿勢,
這叫大愛...

人類只顧面子,
怕丟臉,
怕別人覺得你怎樣怎樣,
而且,
不認錯....

每日三省,
時常反省,
不要一點就不爽,
小小的不爽,
會照成大大的影響..

大事化小事,
小事化無,
難嗎???
有心不難,
沒心在想都難....

人類最大的敵人是自己!!!!!


(持續...)

Please Take a look...Haiti earthquake...

Hi everyone ,
did you know what happened to this world now ?

That's right ~ Disaster ...
On 12 January 2010 ,
Haiti was hit disaster by earthquake .
When I heard about this from news ,
I feel sad .. Speechless ..

How do you think ?
If you lost your family ,
if you lost all the property ,
lost the most loving person ....

Did you feel that ?
I feel console after I saw the latest news just now ,
because US and other country trying to lend helping hand ,
I hope I can help in relief because I love this kind job ,
trying to find people ,
when you found a people alive ,
you will feel that's how happy you are ,
when you found a bodies ,
you will feel that what is sadness really are ...
Did you saw any article that about Haiti earthquake ,
if not ,
please search some article from Google ,
after this ,
you will found that how luckily you are ...

Then ,
let us thanked to GOD ,
because we still live at peaceful place without disaster ,
because we still live with our family/neighbors ,
because we still can playing joke to each other ,
because we still have rich food to enjoy ..

So ,
Please !
Treasure what you have now ,
treasure everything happened around you now ,
because THEY don't have chance to treasure anymore ,
after you get this ,
you will feel meet because this is enough for you ,
I feel enough what I have now ,
no more demand ,
thanked to GOD ....

GOD !
Please rescue them ,
they need your help !
Do you hear me ?
I'm talking to YOU ....


In other way ,
I miss her again ,
everyday ,
non-stop ~~
I glad because ,
we still together ...



Here some link about Haiti earthquake
Take a look !
Don't give up !
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/worldnews/article-1243417/Haiti-earthquake-Furious-survivors-pile-corpses-road-blocks-demand-emergency-aid.html

對或錯?

(某某學校-我的學校)
今天,
平常一樣的到學校享受天堂般的溫度,
冷氣...好舒服...
當上到最後一節了,
發生了一些事情.

造反?爭辯?辯論?演講?
我不曉得,
其實事情是這樣發生的.

就當時的情況是這樣.

就發生這樣的事.

當時 , 老師走了進來準備開始教書,
當時我看的他春風滿面的進來,
也許心情很不錯,
過後,老師就問起同學們:
" 你們有坐回我安排給你們的坐位嗎? "
我們就說沒有,
因為不久前換取別班的同學都被校長調回來了,
本來我們的座位都被其他同學坐了,
那麼被調回來的同學,
也是坐回老師安排給他們的位子,(在他們換班後的-也就是說他們換去的班)
所以我們有些的位子都和他們都一樣，
就照成沒跟著位子坐的言論，
過後在這混亂當中，
有一位同學－ｘ同學，
雖然我不知道爲什麽，
也不知道發生什麽，
那麽這位ｘ同學就說了一句話，
不要浪費時間。
那麽，這句話，
老師聼了就問是誰講的，
這位同學很老實就舉起手，
就被命令站起來然後被趕出班，
雖然這位同學很不願意，
因為老師說：你不出去，我出去．
這位同學自己就走了出去，
那種被趕的感覺不好受．
也許她說了這句話有她的原因．
老師說這是她的態度，
老師說過，他安排我們的座位有他的用意，
也許他想要我們不要抄，
所以我們被安排的座位旁邊不一定是你的朋友．

過後，
事情就開始發生了，
就ｘ同學的朋友就開口說話了，
就和老師辯論起來（不是吵架），
就說老師安排高的人在前面，
矮的人在前面看不到，
又說班太小，因為人太多，
連爸爸都拿出來講了，
等等之類的東西．


然後，
老師說以後誰先到誰坐前面，
不用爭，
過後，
不爽什麼都通通說清楚，
老師就說了幾句話，
帶有點微笑，有點生氣，有點傷心，
其實老師每次做那麼多東西，
例如：１．同學沒來上課，就被叫去辦公室，
　　　　　我有被叫過，老師很好，沒罵人，
　　　　　好好講，對我來說，軟的方式比硬的方式來得更有效．
　　　２．每日要管好我們的態度．
　　　３．很多東西忙，我懶惰寫．
老師有責任在身，所以要管好我們，
我明白老師的用心良苦，
有多少人明白呢？
老師很久以前说過，
要站在別人的立場想，
有時老師要處理很多學生的問題，
好人壞人老師當，老師扛，
做老師不簡單，
老師問了我們，
我趕她你們覺得我錯嗎？我安排你們的座位我做錯了嗎？
我叫你們不要在班按電話，不可以嗎？
過後，
又有幾位同學在加柴加油，
火當然燒更大，
老師就走了，
不教書了．

當然，
有不少人看起來是不爽這幾位同學，
我不懂他們的恩恩怨怨，
非要這個ｘ同學道歉不可，
班長說既然老師都算了，（因為班長找了老師談談）
老師要我們自己搞定好先．

事情就這樣的發生了．．．．．．

同學們，
家有家規，校有校規，國有國法，
雖然我們付錢了，
我們不是最大，
我們不是一切，
規則也是要守，
老師講我們是為了我們好，
而不是爽爽說你們幾下，
老師做的都有的他用意所在，
不是沒事做．．．

給那些同學們，
你們每對也沒錯，
你們說的是真是假沒人知道，
唯有你們自己知道，
也許你們是在幫ｘ同學說話，
還是什麼我不知道，
我們全班都要好好檢討自己，
不是這些同學而已，
我們也要，
因為事情發生在你面前，
雖然不是你解決，
但你要想想，
萬一發生在你身上呢？

至於ｘ同學要不要道歉，
這個問題誰都沒資格管，
因為問題是在於她，
不是你們，
她要道歉，
自然的，她自己會去，
不要道歉，
她自己決定可以了．

給那些添柴下火的同學，
好好檢討你們的行為，
當做之前想想自己這樣做對嗎，
其實你們的行為可以害了一個人，
當一個人生氣時，
我們不可以這樣做，
換這是你，
別人生氣了，
別人添柴下火看看，
看看你的後果．

我對這件事情的發生，
不知要說什麼，
我不偏任何一方，
沒對舆錯，
唯有檢討，
這是我的想法，
也許這就是人生，
無奈．．．．

希望接下來可以好好過寧靜的生活．．．
同學們，加油在你們的學業，
這才實際．．．．

注意：我要澄清！！！！！
　　　個位，以上是發生的事情，別怪我，我只是描述者．．
　　　有些地方不可透露，請給各位不便請見諒，
　　　當然，看了一定有意見，
　　　請把你的意見post在我的facebook，
　　　謝謝．．．

Better life...

Day is passing ,
life is going ,
time is reaching ...
What should I do ?
What have I done before ?
Everyday just passed my life with nothing ,
I realized that I grow up ,
have I ?
I don't know ,
I hate myself why I so easily get hurt..

Thank to my mother treat me so well but strictly ,
thank to her ,
without her ,
maybe I lost myself ,
with her ,
I felt that I become stronger ,
no more crying ,
upset will make you tired ,
right ?
I know that feeling ...

Long time didn't met my cute baby ,
I lost my way ,
no more special in my life ,
but ,
I still happy because still can miss her ,
I feel warm ,
I will miss her every second ,
expect I'm sleeping ...

Actually ,
I very sad just now because my mother ,
always argue ,
but these argument make me grow up ,
make me mature ,
not more childish ,
please ~
Changing yourself ....

But,
still need her comfort ...

I want hug my baby ~~ =(

Study hard,,

As you can seen ,

my blogger background always changing,

many people complain to me that my background make them lag ,

so they can't read well ,

speechless ....

meanwhile ,

I felt suck with these background ,

html make me crazy ,

always change the code without any idea ,

I'm away from these things now ,

so ,

I better change back to my old style ,

do back yourself ,

this is real ....

Recently ,

IBM student sure busy ,

everyone , every person ,

because of time table ,

My most late time to release school is 7.30pm ,

incredible !

But , I like this ,

because that day is our big big teacher teach us ,

Mrs.Ooi ~ My favorite teacher ^^

If she is my grandma ,

I surely happy ,

because can know many from her ,

she can talk so many morality thing to us ,

just like our grandma ,

talk non-stop ,

but ,

meaningful ...

One thing ,

I felt very dissatisfied ,

because of my exam result ,

very very very super bad ,

so sad and anger with myself ,

the result will shown that how word hard you are ,

this is the mark of my hardworking ,

But ,

I didn't lazy ,

but ,

why ?

My point no enough or what else ?

Not clear ? or no point ?

One teacher of us who teach our business,

he very strictly when marking our paper ,

he say all answer is XXXX ,

how I know he so strictly ,

he said if he release some then our answer will wrong forever ,

no ching cai !

So , after this ,

I want work hard !!! More work hard ,

u too ~ My friend , don't give up ,

keep going !

MUET result will release one next Monday ,

hope my result not make me fell ,

band 3 is enough for me ,

can pass is enough for me ,

I don't have any demand ,

enough ...

In other way ,

my trial exam result will send back on 25 Jan 2010 ,

nervous ...

Hope my parent will considerate me ~~

Today ,

after break time ,

I met some L6Ak friend ,

we just have a little little gathering on there ,

just talking our passed ,

hope our ex-monitor will held a little gathering for our L6AK ,

waiting .....

These days ,

I found that I'm 19 already ,

seem like old already ,

wanna become mature already ,

hope can become mature ,

some people said my face is mature but my personality like child ,

always do some crazy or alternative abnormal thing/action ,

so ,

I must change ,

change become mature ,

all bad habit should drop ,

isn't ?

Another special thing ,

what thing ?

of course is my baby lah ,

haha~~

Miss her very much because recently she busy on something ,

I busy + she busy = less connection

miss her + miss her = miss2 her

miss2 her x infinity = infinity miss2 her ^^

Good night to the beautiful work ,

keep going !

Unhappy day for her..

Today
still same with my daily life,
school life,
I like study~

But,
I miss her every moment ^^

Today
I sneezing non-stop ,
maybe she talking about me or missing me ,
hope she missing me, XD
I don't know ,
or somebody talking about me ,
haha~

Just now ,
she grandma has pass away,
she sure felt sad ,
hope she won't cry,
sad is from heart not from eye ,
I know she sad ....

I want comfort her ,
hope she can let me comfort ,
I will use all my strength let her happy...

GOD~
Please take away my happy and send to her ,
I want her sadness ,
please change our mood,
I don't want see her sad ,
I don't want see her cry,
I , I , I ..............

Baby~
Gambeteh !
I'm always on you ...

Same again~

Today

5/1/2010

School life ...

I like my school life,

study non-stop,

but sometime very boring,

feel sleepy,

but...

It's ok to me ,

I want study!!

Everyday I think like that,

at my school can learned many thing,

knew many information that you don't know,

because all of these information is experience from our teacher,

so,

I like listen the story,

sometime teacher will take some history,

I like history so much,

not local history but foreign history ,

I felt that I like economy this amazing subject,

teacher said that economic is study about human behavior,

got supply sure got demand,

got up sure got down,

got good sure got bad,

I like these situation...

In other way,

My account very bad,

I think I want more focus on it,

hope my friend will help us when I need them,

appreciate~

Why I want study hard?

50%-My parent

I want give my parent have a good future .

25%-My future

I study sure decide my future life .

25%-My cute dear

Although we don't not got future or not,

but because of her I feel more important to study,

because of her I feel more power . =) XD

Another special percentage

100%-That guy who trying insult my dear and me,

We are innocent but from his eye we seem like killer !

I don't care so much already ,

he trying challenge my patience ,

no more insulting ! no more wronged ! no more arrogant !

Today

she don't have a good mood,

sad ,

because something happened ,

I don't think that you really nothing,

I'm worry about you now,

be happy little bit ,

I don't want see you sad.

Gambeteh again!

School opening..

4/1/2010

Today

going school with happy mood,

long time no go school already,

I like went to school ,

because

1. Can meet my friend

2. Got air condition ^^

3. Can sleep

4. Learn more

But,

Upper six life is so suck,

IBM

today we release school at 6.30pm

from 7.45am-6.30pm,

this is our school time for Monday ,

cool , awesome , nice , amazing , unbelievable.

Treat us really nice,

for you,

You want ?

Today,

Sometime don't know why I miss her so much,

but,

did you miss me ??

I got gave pay attention on study too~

I want study hard...

I want success ,

I told myself everyday ,

because I cannot give HIM look me down ,

I want help my dear .

Gambateh !

My Dear~

We cannot let him so arrogant !

I will support you every moment .

New year New Alex....

New year still closing with us,

I'm Alex Chew want tell the world,

I will show YOU !

I want show YOU !

I want success ...

I want work hard !

Study !

Nothing will stop me...

...

Alex

Gambateh!!

My Dear

&

My Sister

Gambateh!!

Year 2010..

2009.12.31

Yesterday night ,

I accompany her find her best friend,

because they long time didn't meet,

I though that was a good night for us,

but something happened on her .

On that time ,

I felt angry because of someone trying to hurt her,

insulting her , I hate him ,

but I can't..

Because he is our predecessors ,

never mind ! I will show to him ...

I will show him that I not a loser ,

I like my girl , you cannot do anything on us ,

I like her , this is my choice ,

I want show to you that I really like my girl..

After this ,

I felt that she became more patience then before.

On that time ,

she release all her anger ,

enough to create misunderstandings ,

I worries her,

but she said she OK ,

but I saw her not well,

then I fetch her back home.

When I on the way to home,

I think many many things ,

really really many ,

I almost crazy ,

Ladies and gentlemen ,

If your lover give people insult like that ,

how you feel ?

On that time ,

I almost crazy and want hit what I saw,

but ..... I drive car ...

140KM/s only~

If can , I hope can more fast ..

Maybe this is the way that I release my stress ,

I telling myself ,

I want become a intelligent human ,

I want to show him that I not die!

Although my body is death but my heart never death forever!!!!

I want learn everything ,

I want work hard ,

I want prove to everyone I'm not a loser !!!

Today ,

1.1.2010

A new year is reaching.

I fetch her and her friend hang out to Penang,

I still happy because can accompany her ,

because after school opening ,

maybe I will busy ,

but...I never change my heart to her ,

she still important for me ,

but ,

I will prove anything to that guy that I got ability to like her,

I just want tell YOU !

I won't let you see me like a fool, idiot or what else ,

you say right , I will say you wrong ,

you turn left, I turn right ,

I and Baby won't let myself fall because of you!!

My dear ,

Let us fight for him!

We work hard together,

OK?