怎麼办...

最近,
身體不是很好,
一直生病,
發燒,咳嗽,感冒都來了,
咳嗽是唯一到現在都不能好的.

這幾個星期以來,
都很壓力,很煩,
為甚麼一些事總會發生在我身上,
不是一件事,是很多事,
一次過要把你弄垮了,
這是上天在試探我嗎?
還是要磨練我的忍耐?
真的搞到這樣的地步嗎?

我心一直想,
如果上天要我這樣,
我接受,我相信上天,
天給你遭遇都有個啟示,
上天都會給你美麗的安排,
上天看的是你的心.

如果上天要你做,
你就做,
真心的去做,
上天不會虧待你,
有些事,
我沒完成,
請上天原諒......

求天能給我一次機會...

最後,
也希望她能陪我走下去,
因爲,
她的給我的力量很大.

Sorry...

Yesterday I did a stupid thing ,
hurt she again ,
what the hell I'm doing !
I hate myself now ,
what I do is not hurt her ,
is protect her and give her warm ,
argh! What a stupid foolish people ,
I hate myself and felt sorry starting yesterday ,
why ! Sorry , baby....

Is that finally answer ?

today ,
or can say tonight ,
what should I do ?
What I scared about !
a little stupid Pekcek ?
I don't care anymore ,
I really try my best to get u now ,
not I din try it before ,
but now ,
I using my strength and I won't talk easily ,
u better waiting my surprise ....
hope that will be fine...........................
You said you not a little girl ,
I know ,
what I know just doing my position ,
I knew I din do anything ,
I knew I just "talk",
what for u maybe a "simple talk",
you don't understand ,
I din tell but how u understand ,
haiz~ What is a wonderful world ?
YOU ! I will take next step ,
a very special next step ,
hope u can wait ...
If cannot wait , must wait too~
is that finally message from u ?
but ,
I really get many different experience when I met u ...........

Sad...

Nothing ,

everything is nothing ,

nothing is everything ,

I lost something ,

her ....

I lost what else ?

her !

I lost her concern ,

no more ,

no more ,

not anymore ....

death ~~

Fever is around me ,

I hate this much ,

what's going on with the weather ,

what's going on with the people ,

and her ?

all is nothing ...

sad and disappointed ..

absent exam for 3 day ,

because of fever ,

and really need her concern and comfort ,

nothing !

exhaust all energy just get a little concern ...

Open minded ~~~~~

SAD ! ALEX !